Over the summer I went on a spiritual retreat; a silent retreat. You know, the kind where you don’t get to talk, but the group leaders do, and they have lots to say which makes you want to talk to people about it. After each talk, we were encouraged, however, to meditate on one or two main points for 15 minutes. Meditation was not a form of prayer that I was accustomed to using, but I saw the value in it an made up my mind to continue the practice after the retreat. I began by rereading my notes from the talks to meditate on each day. Once I was through them I chose a spiritual book, Resisting Happiness, by Matthew Kelly.
As I read the back cover, I came to this: “What is resistance? It’s that sluggish feeling of not wanting to do something that you know is good for you. It’s the inclination to do something that you unabashedly know is not good for you.” I thought for a moment about the dirty dishes and laundry that I could be doing. Then my mind wandered to Facebook, Words With Friends and my need for a good long nap. I realized that resistance was strong in me, and despite its “inclinations”, I was going to read and meditate through this book.
Resisting Happiness turned out to be a great book to meditate with. Each chapter was short and easy to read, leaving plenty of time to contemplate. If I wasn’t sure what to meditate on, I used the “Key Point” found at the end of each chapter. Each day, I learned a little more about how resistance tricks us into doing the wrong thing, as well as ways to combat it. For example, I had to face the fact that I am not truly happy. I dread the loss of things that appear to make me happy (social media, games, and naps, never forget those naps) and fear the things that bring true happiness, (love and loving relationships). I fear the latter because I have spent a tremendous amount of time avoiding the responsibilities that come with true love and I don’t know if I am up for the task. This fear-based thinking is one of resistance’s many disguises which this book uncovers.
Many of the remedies to resistance are encompassed in the catchphrase used throughout the book. Become “the best-version-of-yourself”. The author is talking about the person God intends us to be. The one who works to know God, love God and serve God. He uses the phrase “best-version” to eliminate the trap of trying to be perfect while allowing the reader to challenge themselves to be more loving. The book is filled with opportunities to do just that.
So, what did I learn? I learned that some things I do help me become a better person and some things don’t. In other words, I can’t get on social media for two hours and say it is okay because I need a break. It is not my fault that I am helpless to change on my own, but it is my fault if I don’t turn to God for help. Resistance hates action, so when I get bogged down in it, “do the tiniest thing to move whatever you are working on forward.” Another one, that should have been obvious, but I needed it spelled out for me is, “Don’t worry about the talents you don’t have because you don’t need them to fulfill your mission. You have what you need.” That’s a relief because I’ m not much of a cook. I think I’ll go tell my husband and children. Seriously, though, Resisting Happiness provides the reader with important information and easy to follow action steps which are a tremendous help in becoming “the-best-version-of-yourself.”